It’s been far too long since I last wrote amd for that I feel emensley guilty...sorry.
It is a far reflection that you are far from my mind as you are there, constantly. Life has a way of filling the hours in a day, be that with parenting, work, social gatherings or simply mundane chores.
Since I last wrote things are progressing well with the pregancy carrying your little sister...yes, it’s a girl!
Things are never quite straight forward with my pregancies so a few things are being monitored such as; low lying placenta and glucose levels but compared to other events experienced; i’m feeling relativey relaxed. I say relatively, because there is still that hurdle of birth which has brought an increasing level of anxiety each pregancy.
Well, there isn’t too long to go now. We’re finally hitting the 10 week countdown so she will hopefully be here very soon - which I am currently feeling very unprepared for, as not got anything ready but i know it will be fine.
I hope to come and visit you very soon. I’m consious that our visits have become more infrequentand for that too I am truely sorry. It doesn’t warrant a visit to be close to you as I know you surround us, but it does make me feel that little bit closer to you for that brief period.
I’m already thinking about your birtday. Not sure if it’s because your little sister is due in September, or just disbelief that this is my third child in 3 years and you would have been turning 3 years old. Where has the time gone??!!!
It has also got me thinking about how to introduce you two. We brought Joel to visit as soon as I was able and I would like to do the same with her.
I hope Joel doesn’t ever feel that he has missed out on having an older brother, or any pressure on fulling the big brother role. I’m sure he won’t but these are sorts of thoughts that often float around in my head - I am forever overthinking things and need to let what will be will be. The only thing I have control over is to love my children unconditionally and show them the best path in life.
Ok, I am signing off to enjoy some sunshine and before Joel Bear wakes from his lunchtime nap.
Love you always my dear little boy Lucas.
Mummy xxx