Happy New Year! 

2020...I can’t quite believe you would have beem 5 years old this year!!! 

Time scares me as it ticks by, oblivious of how

importance the moment is, and once past it is lost and cannot be rewound.It makes you feel very powerless. 

I am trying to embrace and appreciate each day, even when its been tiredsome, challenaging and overall tough as I am still grateful for my life and what I have...my little family. 

I see your face every day. Not only by the screen saver set on my phone but with the little faces staring back at me. I often wonder whether you would have been like Joel, and Joel different had he grown up with an older brother? Margot has the exerience of an older brother and is proving she is one tough character.

I stared at a photo today and it instantly took me back to how you wiggled as a newborn, making sweet little wimpering sound. It felt like only yesterday and I was pleased that I was able to engage those senses and memories once more