The next 7 days...
2016 September 14
Created by Clair 7 years agoToday is officially one week to what would have been your first birthday. I am also now 36 weeks and 6 days into the pregnancy with your brother and I've been told that his arrival could be anytime now.
It's strange knowing that nearly a year ago I had a baby, you. Only for that triumphant occasion to be shattered, by the events that then unfolded which now seem a life time ago. I often have to question myself to ask, did that really happen? Not to question your existance but because mentally my brain finds it difficult to process everything that happened then, since and the situation Daddy and I are now in awaiting the arrival of your little brother. For whom, we are extremely excited about and can't wait to meet him.
I'm not sure how it is going to feel next week, I know that as the clock strikes 3.26pm that picture of you being handed to me, arms out stretched will imprint on my mind as it will forever do so.
Mummy and Daddy will come and visit you to let you know that you are, and will continue to always be in thoughts. Now and forever. You were our first born, our little baby boy that we had waited so long for, but our paths were unfortunately not meant to take this world together. I like to hold on to the thought that you are somewhere, growing, happy and one day that we shall be reunited.
In this world, your legacy will certainly continue to live on, through us and your new little brother.
Speaking of your legacy, a number of friends have completed a number of events recently (The Niks and half marathon, DEFRA Interns etc quiz night) and raised an incredible amount of money. Others have things coming up, like the Bear Grylls challenge which sounds like loads of fun, though not sure some of them feel the same, hehe. Daddy and I are truly grateful to all those that have helped raised over 30k in your honour, it's an astounding amount of money. We are so so proud.
I wanted to write to you, on what is incredible hot day, just in case your brother makes an appearance in the next few days. It's a total contrast from my first week of Maternity leave last year with you. I remember vividly that it poured down everyday so spent much of it suck in though I did try and get out for a few errands and at least a walk. It was the first time I'd needed a coat as up until then the weather had been very pleasant. Not as hot as now, or the last few weeks but not cold enough to warrant a jacket or coat.
Ok, well I'll leave it there. I'm currently sitting in the garden enjoying the sunshine but might catch up on some Paralympics (can't believe it's been 4 years since 2012!) and designing the invitation for the charity ball - I'm think oh I might as well take advantage of the spare time as I'm sure your little brother is going to be keeping Daddy and I very busy, very soon!
Lots of love.
Mummy xxx
It's strange knowing that nearly a year ago I had a baby, you. Only for that triumphant occasion to be shattered, by the events that then unfolded which now seem a life time ago. I often have to question myself to ask, did that really happen? Not to question your existance but because mentally my brain finds it difficult to process everything that happened then, since and the situation Daddy and I are now in awaiting the arrival of your little brother. For whom, we are extremely excited about and can't wait to meet him.
I'm not sure how it is going to feel next week, I know that as the clock strikes 3.26pm that picture of you being handed to me, arms out stretched will imprint on my mind as it will forever do so.
Mummy and Daddy will come and visit you to let you know that you are, and will continue to always be in thoughts. Now and forever. You were our first born, our little baby boy that we had waited so long for, but our paths were unfortunately not meant to take this world together. I like to hold on to the thought that you are somewhere, growing, happy and one day that we shall be reunited.
In this world, your legacy will certainly continue to live on, through us and your new little brother.
Speaking of your legacy, a number of friends have completed a number of events recently (The Niks and half marathon, DEFRA Interns etc quiz night) and raised an incredible amount of money. Others have things coming up, like the Bear Grylls challenge which sounds like loads of fun, though not sure some of them feel the same, hehe. Daddy and I are truly grateful to all those that have helped raised over 30k in your honour, it's an astounding amount of money. We are so so proud.
I wanted to write to you, on what is incredible hot day, just in case your brother makes an appearance in the next few days. It's a total contrast from my first week of Maternity leave last year with you. I remember vividly that it poured down everyday so spent much of it suck in though I did try and get out for a few errands and at least a walk. It was the first time I'd needed a coat as up until then the weather had been very pleasant. Not as hot as now, or the last few weeks but not cold enough to warrant a jacket or coat.
Ok, well I'll leave it there. I'm currently sitting in the garden enjoying the sunshine but might catch up on some Paralympics (can't believe it's been 4 years since 2012!) and designing the invitation for the charity ball - I'm think oh I might as well take advantage of the spare time as I'm sure your little brother is going to be keeping Daddy and I very busy, very soon!
Lots of love.
Mummy xxx
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