Today was harder than Mothers Day.

Daddy and I came to visit today. I gave him a card from you and your little brother, and an axe engraved 'Daddy Alleebux' for him to cut wood for the log burner - something he has wanted for a long while! 

I knew it was going to be a tough today for I had stood in the same shoes, by your grave on Mothers Day and felt the pain of you not being with us. To see your Daddy so upset broke my heart, and always will do. I wish I could take his pain away and bring you back but I sadly I can't 😞 All I can do is be there to wipe away the tears and support him through the tough days. 

We attended a service put on at Chiltern which was beautiful, sad but beautiful. We sat there holding each other's hand, my heart chipping away as I glanced at the sorrow on your Daddy's face. When Daddy went up to light a candle for you I could no longer hide my sadness, the tears came flooding - it was never meant to be this way. You and your Daddy didn't deserve this. 

There are fathers out there who don't deserve to be given the title, whilst there are others that would and do relish the opportunity and fulfil the role with honour, dignity and pride. Your Daddy is one of these and I am so so proud of him, as I know you are. 

He wrote a message to you in the memorial book, letting you know that we saw a few munc-jac deer over the weekend so I hope they pass you by and say hello. They are such pretty and graceful, very much like you. 

We miss you little man ❤️

Hope you like the beautiful flowers that Nana and Grandad left yesterday.

Lots of love always 
Mummy xxx