There have been so many milestones to endure since you left us. Daddy's birthday, Christmas, New Year, finding out we were pregnant again, Mothers Day, Genetic Testing on your little brother or sister, my birthday and returning to work. These are but a few...each one hard. Centred around the fact that you are not here with us.

So many people continue to raise money in your memory which makes us very proud - you may have only been here briefly but you touched so many hearts.

We collected your car seat and pram carrycot from Nana and Grandad's to store in the nursery to start preparations for your little brother and sister. It's still very early in to the pregnancy but it felt right to have your things back here, at home. 

I often wonder whether they will look like you. Will they arrive early like you did? Will they weight about the same? Will they have as much hair as you did? It's exciting to wonder all these things but it's a painstaking reminder that you are not here to compare them against. 

I miss you little baba, our warm cuddles, your smell, your little fists and feet...everything.

Love you my little cherub, always.

Mummy xxx